December Big FISH Reflection

My Purpose. My Drive.

 “I am the Lord’s servant! Let it happen as you have said.”
Luke 1:38

When Mary said this in reply to the message angel Gabriel gave her, it truly showed how willing she is to follow and serve the Lord no matter what the cost was. She humbled herself and believed without hesitation the Lord’s promise.

What Are You Called By God To Do?

During my elementary years I stumbled upon what I regarded as one of the most traumatic videos I’ve ever seen in my life. It was one of the videos that truly changed the way I saw this world. In a way, it showed me the truth, as well as robbed me of my innocence.

I don’t really remember what the title of the video was, but I still remember some of its visuals. I remember the view of burning forests, brutally killed animals, hunted down elephants, polluted seas, destroyed mountains and a lot more depressing sights such as that. What scarred me the most during those times, I could see that the cause of all of that were humans.

I saw the smiles on their faces as they successfully killed large, innocent, elephants for their tusks. I also remember seeing their indifferent expressions as they beat animals—who don’t fight back—to death just to get their fur. I remembered how they murdered, destroyed, and left with no trace of guilt in their expressions. I remembered everything.

It hurt me that some people, without a second thought, would destroy something they knew they cannot bring back. The video was popular and I knew some of my classmates also watched it. What I didn’t understand was why I was the only one who was that affected by it. After that short film, I ran towards our school’s bathroom and cried my eyes out. I hid it of course and washed my face twice to hide my sore eyelids, but it felt as if I never stopped crying. I still feel those tears until now.

No one is doing anything to stop this, I thought.

And that’s when I realized why I was here. I realized what had to be done. My purpose. I have to stop this monstrosity. I felt compelled to do something. I have to do something.

So, right then I knew what I was called to do. I knew who I was, and what I should stand for.

Although I haven’t done much yet, (I am still just fifteen years old,) I am almost done finishing my book which was solely for that purpose. To remind people what has to be done.

As I grew more accustomed to this world, I begin to find its dark flaws. Its secrets.

Goodbye innocence. Goodbye trust.

I’ve learned how cruel people can truly be. How selfish they can act and how sick they can become.

And no, I don’t mean feverish sick. No. I mean something else. Something my elementary self didn’t even know was possible for this world. People could be heartless. People could be ignorant as heck and the world will fall because of it.

But, I do have hope.

I believe in this world. I believe that there are still good people out there like me, fighting this world’s indecencies. Us, we’re the warriors who go against the current.

I believe God has given each of us a mission and a purpose. I believe there is good in everyone. He told me more than once that He made us good. It’s in our decisions really, whether or not we follow the path set out for us.

But I guess, that’s what Mary felt. She knew what the Lord has planned for her. She felt compelled to follow and trust His will. Just as I am compelled to trust my purpose; my drive.

I know what I stand for, and I know what I’m against. But, I’m God’s servant. May it be done to me as His will commands.

And no matter how merciless this world may be; I believe that there are still people who are kind.

But I do promise you, that you will find me at my Father’s side, no matter what the world may do.

My only ask is, what do you stand for? What is your purpose? Do you know?

Listen and find out.

Allow God to let His will be done to you, and through you.
God bless, warrior.